Well, I can’t say I’ve done a very good job at keeping this up to date.
2018 was a strange year for me. It followed the previous year where I was left broken and wondered if I was going to recover. Like most cases of heartbreak, I managed to go on. As bad as I thought it was I realized I could and would survive. Still, this wasn’t an easy thing for me, and even into this year, I was affected. If I’m honest I have to admit that I still share residues of it. I know it’s over, but sometimes the thought of her still hovers around my conscious like an unwanted ghost. It’s hard to explain. I’m not sitting around wallowing in grief, most of that is finally, at long last gone, but there’s something like an old toothache there, the memory of what might have been and what was that intrudes on my thoughts when I least expect it or want it.
My plans were that this year was going to be a big year for me as far as my writing and publishing. While I can point to some things getting accomplished it was nowhere near what I was hoping for. Part of it I can blame for the overall malaise I’ve felt all year long, but some of it was for more practical reasons such as money. 2015 I self-published 12 comics. I went to at least one convention almost every month. At the end of the year, I realized I had spent a lot of money. And unfortunately not brought in a lot from my writing. Now I have a decent job where I can afford to put a certain amount of money towards my writing without having to worry about an immediate return. But I realized that this year I would need to be a little more frugal.
I have to say that I am proud and happy to get my Lizards series back in print. I’m more than thrilled to have three issues printed this year and the fourth just missing being printed by a few days, as it should be done by the end of the first week of the new year. In addition, I’m started new stories with the characters and plan on continuing the series beyond the five issues of reprinted work. This is a series that I’ve always been very fond of, so I’m happy that if nothing else this year I’ve managed to get it back in print.
So while I can’t say 2018 was a great year, I won’t list it as a complete wreck of a year.
As I mentioned, there was just a certain malaise I’ve felt hanging over me for most of the year. I’ve felt like I’ve been in a sort of limbo. Some of it is me trying to adjust to what I see my future being now, something I’ve always thought and not worried about, until Kayla and I saw a different path, something I’ll write about more in a different post. The good news is that I’m feeling like I’m coming out of the fog and seeing daylight. I have big plans for the new year and am going to work my best to accomplish them.
I don’t want to make any promises that I’m going to be updating this on a regular basis, every time I’ve tried that this year I’ve failed miserably, but part of my plans for the coming year does involve more involvement with this site. This is the site that I’m directing readers or anyone that shows even just the slightest interest in my work, so I need to be more timely with what I write here.
This site isnt’ just a what’s coming out and what I’m writing. This site is meant to be a look at my life as I continue to create new work, so that means you’ll get posts like this where I moan and crap about my life, but hopefully more posts about what I think is good in my life too.
So here’s to seeing 2018 off and looking forward to a new, much better year in 2019.