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A Year Later

Okay, it’s not quite a year, but close enough since I last posted here.  This is supposed to be my as daily as I can make it place to post.  It’s where I direct people to go when I am at conventions.  It’s where  you’re supposed to be able to keep up with what I’m working on.  It’s where you’re supposed to be able to go to just see what I’m up to on a non writing basis also.

Needless to say I’ve been very, very bad at this.  The last year or so has been, let’s say eventful for me on a few different fronts.  Nothing like getting your heart broken twice by the same person.  I could sit here and give a lot of reasons for why I’ve been MIA for the last year, but none of them are very good.  I’ve done some writing in that time, not a lot.

Even when I’m not writing I’m thinking about what I want to write.  My problem the last year has just been sitting down and doing the writing.

I don’t want to make promises that I don’t keep.  I feel like I’ve done that a few times on this page.  What I will say is that my plan is to try to get back into the swing of things.  i will try to keep this site updated.  I will try to get back into my writing.

So let’s hope for the best.

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no promises

I have to admit this last year has pretty much sucked.  Mainly because I’ve let it.  The first half of the year I let someone back into my life, briefly, but someone that had already done much damage to my heart and my self-esteem.   I thought things would be different this time.  I should have known better.  Within a month I was worse off than I had been the first time.  Love sucks.

 

I’ve let this work its way into my mind and slowly just eat away at me, day after day.  Last year I had made so much progress with my writing and publishing.  This year the plan had been to continue that.  Ayla should have had the first four issues finished by now and be in trade paperback.  Boxie should be in a trade.  Other books should have been finished.  But none of this has happened.  Yes, I have finished a few things.  Mainly Trump related since my hate for him can over ride any feelings of depression, lol.

 

I’ve never really used the word depression to describe what I’ve gone through this last year, but if I want to be honest with myself, I have to.  I’ve suffered from depression.

 

It’s made it hard to find the energy to write.  It’s made it hard to find the energy or the motivation to do so many things this past year.   Even though I manage to make myself get some things done and move forward it has been like a weight around my neck, just dragging me down.  At first, I wouldn’t want to get out of bed, if I didn’t have work, I might have stayed there for days.  Even now there are times I just want to pull the covers up over my head and just lay there without getting up.

 

It is getting better.   I’ve actually been dating, though that hasn’t worked out so well, not bad enough to make me even more depressed.  More like it’s bad enough to make me laugh about it.  I don’t think about what might have been, how it went wrong, what I did wrong as much as I did.  And when I do think about it I don’t get upset about it, before it would send me in a downward spiral.   Now it still will jump attack in my mind when I least expect it or want it, but it’s more and more like it’s past history, something that I’m moving on from.

 

So what is the purpose of this post?  To bore you all with my whining.  If any of you were my Facebook friends when all this was going down I think you got enough of my whining to last you for an eternity.  No, this is my moving on and putting all this behind me post.  This is my post where I’m pointing towards the future and putting the past where it belongs, behind me.

 

I’ve made some changes that I don’t want to go into that have been more than self-destructive for me.   Done and over with.

 

I’ve let my health slide.  I’m not in the shape I was in when I first was diagnosed with Diabetes, but I’ve added weight and let myself slide some.  My sugar levels are going in the wrong direction.  I’m going to try to start eating better again.  I know I’m not going to be perfect, far from it.  But I need to put the junk food that I had thrown out and stopped eating when I was first diagnosed back behind me again.  I’m at 194 pounds now.  I want to lose at least twenty pounds.  I’m going to post my weight on here as I move forward, hopefully the idea of looking like a complete fool and adding weight instead of subtracting it will be enough to motivate me to lose it.

 

And more importantly, I’m going to focus on my writing again.  I’ve got some great things going forward and I want to continue that.  I’m made some progress this year, just not as much as I had originally had hoped.  But that’s ok, there’s a new year coming and I can just do better this year.

 

Finally my goal for this site was to post a lot more often.  I want this site to reflect my writing, but also my personal life too.  This is where I want to post my thoughts about whatever catches my mind at that moment, where I complain about what happened today, what’s going on in my writing, etc.  I want this to be like my old blog, as I mentioned in my last post on here too many weeks ago.  I’d like to make this a daily thing, so some posts may be long and informative, while others may be short and leave you wondering why I even bothered, lol.  But at this moment I’m not going to promise daily posts.  I’ll settle for weekly and hope we can move into something closer to daily.

 

So let’s see how well I do this time.

 

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New Comic

almighty project page one finished

I’m a little late in talking about this.  Three weeks ago we debuted the newest comic to feature my writing.  The Almighty Project.  This one is a lot different than Ayla Speaker for the Dead.  For starters it’s in black and white.  I know a lot of people might be turned off just because of that, but I think black and white is just as creative as color.  A lot of the comics I wrote when I first started writing are in black and white.  I’m hoping that the fact it’s in black and white won’t deter anyone from reading it.

The Almighty Project is my attempt at a Young Adult Novel.  If you’re a fan of Andrew Smith and any of his books, blame him.  I picked up The Grasshopper Jungle and fell in love with his writing.  It lead me to immediately look for every book the man has ever written and proceed to read them.  Which in turn lead me to want to write my own Young Adult Novel.  I wouldn’t blame it completely on Mr. Smith, I’ve been reading others before him, but he really grabbed me.

This story has more autobiographical elements in it than anything I have ever written also.  I’ll leave it the reader to determine which are which.

Please give it read and let me know what you think.  This story means a lot of me and I hope you enjoy it.

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Excuses

I’ve been sick.

I’ve been too busy.  My job has been too busy lately.  (My regular job is manager of a big box retailer so there is always something going on to keep me busy.)

I’ve had personnel issues.  Coming out of a two year relationship.

I’m just tired.

I want to watch something on TV.

My dog ate my homework.

Eh, ok, maybe not the last one.

All excuses.  And you know what.  I can always find an excuse.  There’s always going to be something that wants to stand between me and writing.  It’s been like that since I first sat down many years ago and tried to put pen to paper.  It’s going to be like that tomorrow and the next day and the day after that.

It’s called life.

Unless you’re going to lock yourself up in a room and never come out there are always going to be things that interrupt your writing.  Or to keep this on point and personnel, my writing.  I used to be a lot better about not letting such distractions hinder my writing.  I somehow would find the time to find the time to write.

Well, we all know what they say about excuse.  Everyone has one.  No longer.  I’m not going to say that there aren’t still going to be problems sometimes in finding the time to write.  What I’m saying is that somehow, someway I am going to find the time to write.  This site was supposed to be where I talked about pretty much any and everything.  My new writing, what music I’m listening to, what happened that day….this is where I was going to try to keep you updated on whatever.   And I’ve done a terrible job.

Hopefully from here on out it’ll get better.

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For What It’s Worth

For what its worth cover

Coming out in early May is a collection of my past writings on writing.  Most of the columns in here appeared in the late Comics Career Newsletter.  It’s going to be 60 pages and cost five dollars.

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